Vladimir Nabokov’s Lolita has been the center of controversy for over half a century now. For those unaware, the simple reason being his story entails of an older man obsessed with younger girls – or as he calls them, nymphets – and pursuing one of which he nicknames Lolita. It’s understandable why such a concept will even today receive certain backlash.
The summed up reason for Humbert Humbert’s (the older man) fixation on juvenile gals is his past experience with a ‘nymphet’. At a pre-adult age, Humbert fell in love with a premature girl and had deep, passionate desires to marry her and – of course – do the dirty. However, before either of those was possible, she fell ill with typhus and passed away. Since then, Humbert has been unable to control his urges of recreating the relationship with another ‘nymphet’.
The story goes on to tell of him moving to America in order to pursue his writing. There he lives with Charlotte Haze who has a young daughter named Dolores. Soon enough, Humbert’s imagination begins running wild over Dolores. The two relate over how much they hate Charlotte. Ironically, Charlotte’s in love with Humbert and he marries her to stay close with Dolores. Through this time, he writes all his sexual thoughts into a diary which is eventually discovered by Charlotte.
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I’m in a sort of disputation right now with the future of my career. To sum it up, I have a strong desire to start broadcasting myself on YouTube for the sake of my writing. With this, I contemplate whether I should focus on my writing rather than leading myself to believe I have any value in that field of entertainment. I wonder if there are any other writers out there with similar conflictions?
Here’s the catch. When I was young and brainlessly egotistical, I put myself up on YouTube without a second thought. I’d say what I felt like saying and do what I felt like doing, all with a camera recording. It led me nowhere and eventually became a huge insecurity. Something still makes me feel very unsure of the fact that my behavior can be uploaded via video for the world to witness.
However, as a screenwriter, I have this knack for cameras. This is for two reasons. 1.) My obsession with movies. 2.) My never-ending attempt to solidify the present. In my opinion, there is no better way to look back at one’s life more fondly than through the eye of a camera. I could write a whole memoir, but a picture speaks louder than a bunch of words scribbled together.
Earlier, I mentioned what was once my brainless ego. I remain egotistical, no doubt, and it always comes with its cons. Yet, I believe in my sophistication so strongly now that I want to make the attempt of presenting these brains in platforms beyond the page. I guess what truly worries me is the notion that people just might not care.
I have the feeling every writer feels this way about their craft at some point or another. But I wonder if any have ever felt these convictions while deciding on another craft to take up.
We live in an era where manipulating social media is key to becoming successful in whatever sort of career you choose. My strong desire comes from wanting to manipulate any piece of social media and my filmmaking impulses.
If you too have felt yourself in a similar dispute over your career, I’d love to hear about it. Better yet, I’m in a state where I need to hear if you were able to overcome it.
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In 1888, the invention of roll film was perfected. George Eastman had created a technology brilliant enough to capture pictures in motion. It wasn’t long after that people started having their fun with it.
By 1913, Hollywood had begun to grow. It’s often forgotten how convincing cinema was when it first hit the public. For instance, a group of early filmmakers had produced the moving image of a train coming towards the camera. When audiences first saw this, they jump away from the screen, honestly frightened.
By 1982, Sony had developed the camcorder. Motion picture anyone could own and create. One of the great aspects to this was the rise of independent films. However, this also lead to a rise in what I like to call; Continue reading