Hidden Talents

Hidden Talents

I’m in a sort of disputation right now with the future of my career. To sum it up, I have a strong desire to start broadcasting myself on YouTube for the sake of my writing. With this, I contemplate whether I should focus on my writing rather than leading myself to believe I have any value in that field of entertainment. I wonder if there are any other writers out there with similar conflictions?

Here’s the catch. When I was young and brainlessly egotistical, I put myself up on YouTube without a second thought. I’d say what I felt like saying and do what I felt like doing, all with a camera recording. It led me nowhere and eventually became a huge insecurity. Something still makes me feel very unsure of the fact that my behavior can be uploaded via video for the world to witness.

However, as a screenwriter, I have this knack for cameras. This is for two reasons. 1.) My obsession with movies. 2.) My never-ending attempt to solidify the present. In my opinion, there is no better way to look back at one’s life more fondly than through the eye of a camera. I could write a whole memoir, but a picture speaks louder than a bunch of words scribbled together.

Earlier, I mentioned what was once my brainless ego. I remain egotistical, no doubt, and it always comes with its cons. Yet, I believe in my sophistication so strongly now that I want to make the attempt of presenting these brains in platforms beyond the page. I guess what truly worries me is the notion that people just might not care.

I have the feeling every writer feels this way about their craft at some point or another. But I wonder if any have ever felt these convictions while deciding on another craft to take up.

We live in an era where manipulating social media is key to becoming successful in whatever sort of career you choose. My strong desire comes from wanting to manipulate any piece of social media and my filmmaking impulses.

If you too have felt yourself in a similar dispute over your career, I’d love to hear about it. Better yet, I’m in a state where I need to hear if you were able to overcome it.

Photograph by 2bitz

The Future of This Blog

The Future of This Blog

I’m going to make this short and sweet. In my humble opinion, I think journalism is going to a shit. And journalists either need to change their methods or their approach. I, for one, never considered myself capable of this line of work. Rather, I particularly enjoy fiction writing. Yet, after a publishing onĀ High Time‘s website, I am starting to look at the matter differently.

From here on out, I plan to use this blog as a way of heightening my journalism skills. What you will find here is a cluster of events I partake in, random news-related opinions, and some history-driven pieces. This is something I have considered for a while and would like to put it to the test.

If only building an audience wasn’t as difficult as it has to be. When I first created this blog, it was for the sole purpose of my freelancing career. To give potential clients another place to absorb more of my work. After getting some feedback, I found the motivation to expand. Now, I question how to make that expansion.

As I mentioned in one of my previous blogs, everyone wants to be read and no one wants to read. Well, to be honest, I hold some of this characteristic myself and I believe it is one of the biggest faults I have in building an audience. Either that or I’m just a fool with social media.

Regardless, I hope for the best and I hope you’ll join me.

-Paul James

Feedback for a Segment of my Story

Feedback for a Segment of my Story

One of my greatest goals as a writer is to properly recreate the modern generation’s conscious thoughts onto paper. Being that my thoughts are my only source of knowledge, I’m unsure how far I’ve come in successfully doing this. Professors have told me I have a voice that very much recreates the youth. Friends have told me they can relate to my work. However, no one has told me I’ve captured the modern generation’s stream of consciousness.

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